God has been dealing with me alot lately about the concept of identity- who i really am. I really don’t see myself like I should. But, I really don’t like to look at myself alot. So I decided it would be better to learn more about God and Who He is, and see myself in light of that. So, I started reading the book Attributes of God- volume 1, by A. W. Tozer, and want to write some of the things that God is speaking to me through it. I hope that they can be a blessing to whomever reads this.
God is absolutely endless. If He was not, He would not be God. Who can believe in a God, who can fully trust in a God Who is not absolute? If He doesn’t own it all, overcome it all, if He isn’t bigger that it all, if He isn’t eternal, unchanging, never ending, He is really not much better than us. He’s just a very good, powerful man. And who wants to place their trust in a (hu)man? It would make Him less than perfect, less than complete. Who knows, you might be trusting Him and loving Him, and one day come to the part of Him that He doesn’t have or overcome or know, and OOPS! What now? This Being that you have built your whole life on trusting and loving and following is suddenly not able to trust or love or lead you. He is suddenly not really God, because now you have to rely on yourself and you are outside of what He is. And by definition, God is always over us. Creation, space, time, all the galaxies and stars, us, are all in His heart. He surrounds all that is. He is bigger than all of it.
And there is a flip side. God, in His endless, eternal, unchanging infiniteness, came down to our level and became a man so that we could see Him en masse; so that we could know Him and understand Him better and have a relationship with Him. I do not believe that Jesus was the first time God came to earth- there are many other examples listed in the Bible, and I believe there were probably some outside of those. But, those times were different. He came for a very short period of time and did not physically come as a man, but as God represented as a man. Jesus had a long ministry, and was both God and man. (I know the God-man thing is hard to understand- I sometimes have a hard time understanding it. In fact, I’m not sure I really do understand the mechanics of it at all- how God can physically be totally man and still be totally God, but I accept that it is true and happened, even though I don’t understand it fully. Some things the human mind cannot comprehend, and mine less than others’ sometimes.) Jesus’ ministry was also different from the previous appearances of God on earth because, in the previous ones, God came to speak to a person or two, whereas Jesus came to speak and interact with many people. Previous occurrences were to deliver words, Jesus was to deliver people.
But even in this becoming human, He did not lose His infiniteness. It was merely an extension of Himself- a way for us to see the infinite in a finite way. We cannot truly deal with the infinite- it is outside of our realm of understanding. Everything we do and think involves some level of measurement, and it is impossible for us to really think about things outside of measurement without getting a brain cramp or two. The example given in the book, which is taken from C.S.Lewis, is to think of an enormous, endless piece of paper stretching in all directions, covering everything in existence. Put a mark on it with a pencil. Where you put your pencil down is where time began, where you pick your pencil up is where time ends. Everything outside of that is God. Think about it for a bit.
When your brain stops smoking and untangles from its knot, think about what is even cooler. That is the God who loves us and has spent all of His infinite existence thinking about and chasing after and who created everything for you.
That is our value. That is our identity.
That is infinitely amazing.